Day 34

Well it's been a little while since I filled in the blog ... the reasons for that - are this .....

It seems that alongside all of the other side effects that I have mentioned previously - I have also suffered the side effects that can cause the symptoms of depression. I have found that although I have been very strong with regards to the smoking - I have been increasingly miserable as time has gone on. I find normal problems extremely difficult to cope with and not only has it caused problems in my own day to day dealings, it has also caused problems with my relationship. I got to a point over the past few days where life itself was becoming too much, getting out of bed was the hardest thing ever and I couldn't hold a conversation with my fiance without arguing. This is not me! I am one of life's real super troupers with a very positive outlook and a happy go lucky attitude - or at least - I was!

So I have made the decision to try and stop the champix. I know that my reactions to this pill are extreme and anyone reading this should not assume that this is the norm for everyone that takes it. The champix has helped to stop me smoking - that is the truth. However, it has really changed my life and my personality.

In my experience so far, I have become increasingly depressed and irrational since I started on the champix, and I've also gained quite a lot of weight, so I am going to try and go it alone! How long I'll cope - I don't know! But I'll certainly keep you posted!

For all those giving up smoking, keep it up. I think I've proved that it's not easy - but I'll keep going! And I hope you will too!